In May, writer Junot Díaz was accused of misconduct by several female writers, including forcibly kissing one woman. The allegations set off a firestorm of tweets and think pieces about Díaz’s behavior and how he fits into the growing #MeToo movement. For Latino USA’s Amanda Alcantara, Díaz had been a kind of literary hero. So, after the allegations came out, she set off on a journey of introspection to figure out how she should feel about Díaz and his work—a journey that included heartfelt conversations, deleted tweets and even a mysterious anonymous email.